Showing posts from January, 2018

2 Weeks into the Fast

During this fast so far, I feel as if I've shorted out some of the process because I just haven't really spent as much quality time with God as I'd like. I wanted this to be a time of phenomenal growth, and so far, it's been less than that. I almost wish I had struggled more with the food. However, after several months of Beachbody, I am really okay with healthy food. It's a little tough, but nothing like it has been in the past. I'm okay.

Honestly, the lack of struggle has meant that I don't have to cry out to God on a constant basis to help me through this. I've been able to just go through the day mostly in a routine way. Yet, I didn't want this fast to put me in crisis mode, either. I wanted to seek God in a freer, more pure way, not because I had to. Yet, it didn't really happen that way.

On top of all that, I've been dealing with some internal struggles. There are some relationships in my life that are straining the limits of my self-c…

Fasting for 21 Days Like Daniel

What really matters to you? To me, it's all about love. I love God, I love my family, and I love my friends. More and more lately, I love this amazing woman that God made to live in this amazing body that is typing this message so adeptly. Yes, I am learning to love me. And it's something I would have considered sacrilegious to say in the past. Love myself? I know every verse about why I shouldn't. What changed? I learned one very important one, "Love thy neighbor as thyself." This was my problem.
Stephanie Orsini didn't like herself much. She talked a big talk about self-esteem and self-acceptance, but she really didn't have much of it. She treated herself badly with her negative self-talk and her disrespectful treatment of her body. And she treated others pretty badly, too. Slowly, over time, I learned a lot about how to love myself, and now I'm learning to act like it. I'm taking care of my health, speaking kindly to myself, and expecting respe…